One of the reasons for starting this blog is that since starting ketamine infusions I’ve had, (in addition to a complete recovery from “writer’s block,”) a much greater desire to feel close to other people. During the infusions themselves I find myself thinking about people I’ve known throughout my life and the importance of connections in general. But even in my regular life, I find myself missing old friends and craving bonding experiences in a way that is unusual for me (a serious introvert who prefers work and solitude to socializing).
I don’t know if this is something specific to ketamine treatment. Perhaps this is just what remission from decades of depression feels like, when anhedonia is lifted and the self-critical focus that impedes social connections is reduced? Either way, after about a zillion years of waiting, I’m finally here and just want to scream….hello!
Speed of Sound (2009) and Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town (1993) by Pearl Jam